Regarding the sudden disappearance of all of my work with models and the accompanying 17,000+ photos from this site, I really hadn’t intended to shift my site around so instantly. I’ve been intending to change the site for months but I wasn’t even at a point where I had a plan for how I would change things.
A recent death sent me into an emotional feedback loop and I felt I needed to immediately axe that whole portion of the site. Or at least access to it.
I don’t know how I’m going to restructure, honestly. A couple of years ago when I decided to go “all in” with housing and publishing the model work here, it made absolute sense in that moment. And it still does, I just don’t know how I want to make it accessible, really.
The simple fact is that no matter my views on nudity, sexuality, or content of an adult nature and no matter your views if they’re inline with mine, it’s too unacceptable for the mainstream still. And I don’t want to risk my credibility or my voice because of that. I don’t want it to be the first or the last impression someone has of me.
I’ve had plans to make mental health issues and our collective well-being a focal point in the redesign. It’s an important issue and one that weighs on me in a number of different ways and for a number of different reasons. A recent suicide made me realize that it’s enough. I can’t with this anymore.
So I went all about shuttering things up here hastily. Which isn’t right, either.
But there are so many reasons why this site is shifting. And I’ll get into those later, in detail, but for now I thought an explanation of why all of the model content disappeared was needed. (If you’re looking for something in particular you can hit the site map – for now, none of that content is available on the main menu.)